Mental Health – Shattered Warrior

Struggling

I recently learnt something, that I wish I could unlearn, about a couple of people whom I thought I’d become close to… It wasn’t a shocking revelation or even surprising really. But still, the wave of shock managed to wash away the thin veil of the benefit of the doubt that kept long-held suspicions neatly fromContinue reading “Struggling”

Still me, let’s see

With how quickly the first semester of 2025 has flown by, I’m grateful that I didn’t dive into the “new year, new me” trap. So muchs happened that it feels like the last seven months were at least three and a half years long. It’s not that I didn’t have dreams to focus on orContinue reading “Still me, let’s see”

Oh, the ticking clock…

Throughout my life, I’ve become very well acquainted with nightmares. It’s something that I experience periodically, but more frequently during times of intense stress and/or anxiety. Although I know it’s a pretty standard thing that happens, it’s the brain’s way of processing things in our subconscious. Knowing that, unfortunately, doesn’t help me make sense ofContinue reading “Oh, the ticking clock…”

Scanxiety

This month is check-up month and the scanxiety is real. I find it much easier to not worry about the outcome when the appointments are still a couple of months away. “Out of sight, out of mind,” as the saying goes. But once the notifications become visible in my calendar, the little gremlin of fearContinue reading “Scanxiety”

Triggers

I recently started rewatching the TV show, House MD, for the umpteenth time. It’s one of those shows that triggers mega nostalgia from inside jokes with friends to bonding with hubby over it when we were still very newly wedded. Despite how big of the big role such shows played in shaping the early-twenties-me IContinue reading “Triggers”

Vulnerable

As of late I’ve been feeling… vulnerable about my health. Suffering from migraines has chewed away at my mental health. Despite knowing it is not one’s fault, people have a way of making one feel like a burden without meaning to. There are very few people who understand a migraine is more than “just aContinue reading “Vulnerable”

Struggling

I would never have thought my biggest health struggle would turn out to not be the big C or the resulting hysterectomy and colo-rectal resection… surely my body could not betray me in a worse or more debilitating way? I was wrong. As traumatic as the cancer process was, I find myself in a gameContinue reading “Struggling”

Growth

2023 was hard. I changed jobs… twice. I was hoping the change in environment would solve the anxiety and panic issues I was struggling with and help to relieve debilitating migraines I was suffering from. In retrospect, it was like putting a band-aid on a gunshot wound – not really properly addressing the root ofContinue reading “Growth”

Change is as good as a rest?

I never really understood what people meant when they said: change is as good a rest or a holiday. I’m fairly good at a adapting in the moment to a sporadic change. But big life changes causes me so much anxiety. I like to know a process or an outcome, so I can be sureContinue reading “Change is as good as a rest?”

All things come to an end

Yesterday marked the end of an era for me – it was my very last day of working for my previous employer. It was an weighted decision that came after many prayers and internal debates. I had walked those halls for eight years… Some of my biggest battles and also even bigger victories happened duringContinue reading “All things come to an end”