We recently went to a jeweller to have my wedding ring cut off… a spell of dehydration caused some water retention that turned my fingies into nice pork sausages. The idea of cutting it caused me some heartache and anxiety, which is silly (I know). It was very uncomfortable and somewhat painful. We knew weContinue reading “Little Anchor”
Category Archives: Journal
An Impostor Among Us…
For the last couple of months I have been grappling with some pretty big self-doubts. Having survived and conquered the cancer mountain has left me feeling like I am operating in existential limbo. Everything has returned to a relative state of normalcy, but I no longer feel normal. With everything that changed, I don’t seemContinue reading “An Impostor Among Us…”
MY 2021 IN NUMBERS
2021 was a strange year for the world at large, and also for me personally – for non-Covid related reasons. We are nearing the end of the second month of 2022 and I am still daily processing everything that has happened since 08 December 2020. I’m on the other side of one of the biggestContinue reading “MY 2021 IN NUMBERS”
A Legacy
As human beings, I think anyway, we all have an inner need to leave a great legacy after we are gone. For some, their idea of a great legacy is being remembered by thousands for their accomplishments, while for others it’s just to make sure the ones they leave behind know that they were loved.Continue reading “A Legacy”
Regression to the mean
We’ve been in the eye of a pandemic for almost two years now. It significantly changed everything in a comically short amount of time, and everything seems to keep changing the more time passes. Even more strange for me, is that it has almost been a year since we found out I have cancer. AllContinue reading “Regression to the mean”
Early detection is key
September has always had a special place in my heart. Not only is it my birth month, but it is also the start of spring in South Africa. I am a winter person in my heart of hearts, but I adore the fresh beauty that comes with spring time. Nature is rebooted. Everything that layContinue reading “Early detection is key”
Tattoo
Tattoos are fascinating. They are a form of self-expression that helps to tell your story and show the world who you are, while also representing the artist’s unique talent. Hubby and I had a deal that we would get tattoos once I passed my postgrad diploma, which I did – but then the pandemic struckContinue reading “Tattoo”
Goodbye to those who never were
For as long as I can remember I have been on the see-saw of potential motherhood: hopping between being excited for one day becoming a mother and being too terrified to even want it. I am convinced that I would have been a good mom, in the sense that I would have been wholly committedContinue reading “Goodbye to those who never were”
Done
The road to recovery is a game of leapfrog between reaching milestones and reaching the end of yourself. You can easily get lost between these two stages. Reflecting on my days in hospital, the milestones felt like the easy part. It can be measured out. There are specific goals that need to be reached. IContinue reading “Done”
Cancer
Some things in you change when you find out that you have cancer. These changes can happen all at once or gradually over the treatment time that follows. The first change is an element of shock that floods your system. It chills and paralyses you, while all the possibilities of what the rest of yourContinue reading “Cancer”
Shattered Warrior 